Loss..

Losing someone makes you realize ,how much you loved them..April had been a year where i lost my darling sister Namita ,maybe i will never get over it.Its exactly a month today.She was like a ray of sunshine which enriched our lives.Every breath i takes reminds me of something or the other about her.Her favorite actor ,our book shopping ,her quick humor.It was a jolt to entire family,its the time when one realizes what the a family life is all about.
Namita wanted to become a scientist! I always encouraged her and she had an unusual grasp at understanding things.There are things people say to make it easy,but its never easy to lose someone.Its easy to say "i understand",but it never is.Made me realize that life's so short that we get caught up in the rat race and forget the real meaning of life.Namita is something special in our life.That introvert kid with a dash of sense of humor,who loved computers and reread Harry potter again n again.

smashed ideals....

This year has been an eye opener of sorts.I had been living a life in cuckoo-land both personally and professionally . Sometimes there are Eureka moments in life where you suddenly ask yourself "what the hell am i doing!!" Being an eternal pessimist things didn't faze me till now.But,as they say a bit of optimism never hurts.But,dreaming about a change is as useless as farming in Sahara.But, is taking charge is the key?We always fear the unknown and hesitate to take that final step towards that change.We are so used to comforts and routine that change becomes a fearful entity.But,in retrospect it always pays to think before disregarding it from our mind.We might regret it later in coming years and mightn't get that window of opportunity again.How did i end up giving this gyaan,well lets just say that few things led me completely rethink my attitude and beliefs.I learnt that  honesty  hardly pays(not that i plan to become dishonest now :D ) .Hardwork is considered doormat attitude .Allowing others to take the credit is a big NOO. I even shed a few tears on the death of my ideals ...Well,no bitterness but just a lil irritated.I am just venting my feeling here, and some stranger will probably read this and identify with it.But,i am no closer to choosing a course of action.But,better late than never...
           

Another Year gone...

Time seems to be moving fast now that we are all grown up .When I was kid,my new year used to start with happy anticipation of festivals and celebrations coming yet again.Though holi and diwali used to be months away we blissfully used to start counting the days.School days used to be the slowest.We were in a hurry of growing up and putting school days behind us.Now that they are gone we can't stop reminiscing them.Now,i had stopped making any resolutions .But this year somehow i feel like making a few.I would be more open at work and discuss ideas with optimism.I tend to be cynical and "i know it won't happen" attitude at work.This is going to change.Being aggressive is the key in today's world,merely hard work doesn't suffice.I will learn a 2 new skills in 2011( Dancing and ......still deciding on that).I am being nostalgic about 2010,it was fast paced and fun filled.I will start thinking about writing a book.Will travel to new locations.Will be less judgmental.