smashed ideals....

This year has been an eye opener of sorts.I had been living a life in cuckoo-land both personally and professionally . Sometimes there are Eureka moments in life where you suddenly ask yourself "what the hell am i doing!!" Being an eternal pessimist things didn't faze me till now.But,as they say a bit of optimism never hurts.But,dreaming about a change is as useless as farming in Sahara.But, is taking charge is the key?We always fear the unknown and hesitate to take that final step towards that change.We are so used to comforts and routine that change becomes a fearful entity.But,in retrospect it always pays to think before disregarding it from our mind.We might regret it later in coming years and mightn't get that window of opportunity again.How did i end up giving this gyaan,well lets just say that few things led me completely rethink my attitude and beliefs.I learnt that  honesty  hardly pays(not that i plan to become dishonest now :D ) .Hardwork is considered doormat attitude .Allowing others to take the credit is a big NOO. I even shed a few tears on the death of my ideals ...Well,no bitterness but just a lil irritated.I am just venting my feeling here, and some stranger will probably read this and identify with it.But,i am no closer to choosing a course of action.But,better late than never...